Sunday, June 24, 2007
OMG~~~~~~sorry guys....totally forgot to blog...wakakaka........(8hours till start of school) anyways.......
VJC auditions........I screwed up my slow "piece" (it isn't a piece...haha.....just a small part of it).........reason??.......never prepare my air.....WHY?........got tensed.....NO!!!!!!!........Then the fast "piece" was over in like....45 secs?...haha.......phantom was my choice.......(eeeeee haha....)
The Sight-Reading piece was masquerade for band or something.....Totally screwed that up also......
I am so dead.....haha.......now what to do sia......sianz........
SAJC auditions........is TOMORROW........and i have totally no idea what is gonna happen haha.......thanks to a certain "trustworthy" person who took the responsibilities that i was supposed to have.......What will happen?.....Will there be a Repeat of the VJC auditions....what if i made it into consideration for both JCs?....LOL.....as if that would happen.........|^.^|
Well......how did i pass my holidays..........Band.......Make-up Lessons......GAMING!!!!! wakakaka.......been playing maple story again haha......lol....so sian.....well tonight is supposedly the last hour that i would be playing maple haha............i think i am so gonna screw up my "O"s.......haix....what to do...What to do...What to....What.......
Well...today went to help dad at stall in the morning.......had a cut that does not look serious but is F***ing serious.........now i know how Kenneth Foo felt like when he got cut with the saw in D&T.......then went Parkway to "supposedly" meet up with Sean....Ralph....Wei Cheah....Benjamin Lim....Etc..etc......was bastard-ed by the last 3 people on that list i gave out..........something bout TOO TIRED?????....like WTF...wasted my time lor....supposed to have fun on the last day..... then come and bastard.....thats not fun for me know......
Can't be bother by people like that anymore.......haha......
Blogging again pretty soon i guess...haha......
It may be fun for now...but when you look back.....you will realize how stupid it was for you to have made that decision.........after all life is about decisions....why make a wrong one..because it seemed fun at that point of time?.........(quote Russell Peters: Be a Man....Do the Right thing.....)
posted by Jackson @
6/24/2007 10:32:00 PM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
hey hey......paiseh very long update le.....went through quite an emotional roller coaster these few days.....HAIX..........been sighing more then i have for the past 4 years of my life......anyways.............received a call quite recently from the VJC people with regards to my audition ( yes i decided to try my luck)........i got accepted for auditions !!!!!! yay........but now i dunno what to play.... WHAT TO DO sia.........and i also got that guilt feeling that i should not have applied for VJC and SAJC.......SO MA FAN!!!!!
well.........The OBOE section is EXPANDING!!!!! yay so happy haha finally even though it took 2 years for that to happen haha...........
I still having problems with my reeds!!!!!haha..........anyways l8r going to buy reed from Sir Jeremy........hope that reed will work WITH me.........don't really like reeds that work against though haha.........guess what i found what on Monday..........Rico Royal produces OBOE reeds also hahahahahahha......oh my gosh!!!! was SO SHOCKED when i found out haha.......
Then yesterday arh......hmmmm...........got lots of things happen lor.....haix........got one super MAJOR bad one........i think nearly happen but never bah haha..............anyways....been gaming again hahaha................like i said i hardly practice......so i think i needa straighten out my priorities again haha..........anyways............Mr.Glz Wanna buy a New OBOE!!!!! (or so he says).......If he really buy......hopefully it would be a Cabart or f.loree (maybe howarth also can...but definitely hope its not another student model........)
Well thats all there is to say for NOW.....will blog again only my VJC auditions on Monday....haha then i think i ill more to say say (gossip gossip if possible... i try my Best haha)
posted by Jackson @
6/14/2007 08:29:00 AM
Friday, June 08, 2007
........conflicts seems to be on a raise nowadays......between mostly me and the clarinet section......i said me because :
(1) It is only me quarreling with them...
(2) I am the only one within the 'so-called' oboe section....
(3) I think its gonna stay that way till a certain few someones will actually listen to what i have to say about this so called 'section'
.........Also......my choice of friends (except for those made in sec 1 first month) are mostly WRONG.........i made a wrong decision to depend upon people who are.....how to say.....superficial.. for starters.........they criticize others for the same mistake they have......pretend to be people they are not....try to act as if they are totally in control.......making me feel as though.. for once... i actually had proper friends.......as in more then juz a fucking small group lesser then 5........
......i made an error in trying to 'bond' with the lower sec......now......i am not respected......they think i am the slackest senior......never have temper that can last for 2 hours......at least at them.......and when i am actually serious....they still think i am joking....
.......i should have listen to my Directs with regards to my juniors...be it direct indirect(does it make a difference here?? i do not have an oboe junior anyways)......be harsh first.....let them know Whose the boss........then slowly let go of the leash..........
.....now i regret so much.......i think i should juz live the remainder of my st. pats' life as an individual......(be a second 'james wong' in a way)..stop going out with these so called 'friends'..who think they are giving me proper respect......which i know doesn't come from the heart.....and you dare expect me to give you respect for the times you did not give me???..... WAKE UP YOUR FUCKING IDEA.........................
.......life really gives you a lot of tough decisions.....like choosing friends(or company).........choosing your spouse.......choosing your career.....
having friends that try to influence your choices........making you see only the point of view that they want you to see.......which is most probably not the best option you have.....thats cause its not what you know is right.....but what they feel is right for you........
I personally find myself surrounded by people who try to do just that.......and i have seen incidents of peoples whose friends help them make their decision....something which i fear will happen to me also.....as for the people who are trying to change me....You all Know who you are......and i know its bad to give names here........so i WANT you to stop it.... stop trying to change to someone very different from what my hearts tells me i am.......Do not make me something like you........I AM NOT YOUR PUPPET........you want a puppet???.......GO to the Carpenters' store and ask him to make one for you to play with....
well......i know i made wrong decisions........but i am now fucking confused.....hope some one...some angel or whatever.....can come and save from falling into this Dark abyss...where i know.. i can never come out of...should i fall in that is
posted by Jackson @
6/08/2007 09:15:00 PM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
As you guys can see.....i made a few twitches here and there on this page......please tell you find it.....
also i added a countdown timer to the day (i think ) that my Batch is 'Relief Of Duty 'ed..will be changing it to one for First "GCE 'O' levels " paper (22/10/2007).....seems so close.....well.........wonder what will happen to those who we leave behind......the friendships(in a way).....the bonds(er... are they the same??)......haha.......
I know that throughout this period of time...i have offended many people....i do hope you will forgive the offenses....though SOME might not be pardonable........well........i hope to see you all prevail...and most of all.....upkeep the honor.....the honor of being a patrician.....of being a true and caring friend.......of just being a human living in this hap-hazardous society of Singapore....(okay... maybe this part is crap haha).....
Well.......thats all.................
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For Now that is ahha
posted by Jackson @
6/06/2007 10:26:00 PM
Monday, June 04, 2007
....*laughing out loud* sorry people for not updating for so...so ...... long haha....
Anyways.....I AM SO SUPER HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!........my DSA to Sajc has been approved by Mr. Lak haha.....yea......now awaiting for the audit only.........what to play lehz......???...any suggestions haha.......*hint*(flood my board haha)
Today had band practice.........got pissed-off by
(1) Secondary Three Clarinetist ==> no initiative to ask whether i joining not.........
(2) Justin Goh ==> for any how touch touch my oboe case to whack a certain someone's ass...(Grrrrr)
(3) Mr. Lim Yue Long ==> for trying to act smart..but added fuel to the Already RAGING fire...
That caused my throat to be so sore today........I VERY VERY long time never shout at idiots already...haha..........felt as if i am venting anger at them haha................(if those who kena the scolding ever read this haha......i was really pissed off already....==> Boiling Blood.....Erupting volcano......readying katana to murder someone haha.....)
Well... hoped they learned not to mess with me haha........anyways......i think i am caught between going for St. Pats' School Alumni band....and whether i should try out VJC not.....(*hint 2* flood me with comments about this please)
Well thats all i wish to say........or update in a way haha..........well please take note of the blue words haha...........
Till Next time then....haha
posted by Jackson @
6/04/2007 09:35:00 PM
